Passion that's forever

I can only choose words to express myself and my feelings. I don't think there is enough words that i could find to explain the person that i am and the person i am looking for.

The trials i have been through in my life, they make me who i am. Some things made me strong, some made me weak, some made me wise and some made me easily breakable but above all they made me a better person. I am looking for my soul mate, someone who sees every single quality, flaw and detail about me. I want a man who when i tell my life story to he looks at me with love and instantly i feel comforted. That when i explain the hell I've been through he doesn't feel pity for me but he sees strength, kindness, compassion and love in my eyes. I want someone who sees my worry, my tears and my sincerity about our relationship as passion for our love. Not a bad sign, but a sign that i am in this for the long run and never want anything to ruin that. I don't like explaining myself. I want the man who is my forever, to see my huge heart, to see my compassion, my love, my forgiveness, kindness, sincerity, overall sweet heart without me having to tell him about it. I want a man who i can wait to tell my past too, who I'm not afraid will run away if i don't tell him right away. I want someone to comfort me to keep me safe.

This is isn't exactly how i planned on starting out this blog post. I just have been waiting so long for someone to have my heart again. To give someone my  heart and not have it shattered. I want my gentleman who opens the door for me, who calls me beautiful everyday, who shows me his love without me having to ask for it, who sees the very best in me and the very worst but still sees me as the most amazing woman ever, i want someone who is compassionate, dedicated, driven and makes me a better person everyday. I want a love so strong, a passion that last a life time. A passion that last forever, that when we are old and weary that we still wake up with smiles on our faces that the one we live is right next to us. I want to get married, hear those little footsteps on the wood floor and the burst into mommy and daddy's room to wake us up, i want the fights, the tears, the hardships, but most importantly the love because all of those things make up the best thing in life. Memories. The hard things that people work through make you stronger, together. Not only do you get to walk side be side in life but you get to be one.

I am not saying that anyone deserves the best in life because honestly no one does its by the grace of God we are here. But what i am saying is i deserve all of that. I deserve the man who protects my heart with every ounce of his body and never lets it start to wilt. Im sick of fighting for love, i don't want to fight anymore. I don't want to worry every night whether or not I'm being played. So many men don't understand how many times i have been hurt, i just don't think they fathom that. They take my hurt and my pain as immaturity maybe and being broken and maybe not ready. But that is far from it, yes it hurts. The past hurts but i am not broken, i am strong and i am more than ever ready to share my life and my love with someone.